Trusting that God is in Control
It seems like the last 2 weeks we have been on an emotional rollercoaster. We found out that we were expecting again, but knew right away there were some issues. At that time I was an emotional wreck. I had several blood test and was put on medication and my doctor was pretty confident that it was going to be a successful pregnancy. However, on Wednesday we found out that it was an ectopic pregnancy. And unfortunately there was no option but to remove it because if we didn’t it would rupture and could be life threatening. Both us and our doctor had agreed to use medicine instead of surgery, because for several reasons. I had blood work again that day to make sure everything else was functioning properly and could handle the treatment. I had not really had much pain, which to my understanding that is very rare, until yesterday morning. When we went to the doctor yesterday we had planned on going in, getting a shot and going home. However, since I had been having so much pain the doctor wanted to do another ultrasound. At that time we found out that it had almost double in size overnight. Because it had grown so much we had to weigh our options. The ectopic was bigger than what is recommended for the treatment and the risk for it rupturing was increasing since it was obviously growing at a very fast pace. We all decided it wasn’t worth the risk and decided to go ahead with surgery. We headed straight to the hospital from the doctor’s office.
Our friend Jennifer had offered to keep Deacon while we went to the doctor. We decided to take her up on that offer since the day before we were at the doctor’s office for 3 hours. You know you have great friends when you call them up and say, I know you only planned on having Deacon for a few hours, but can he stay all night. I knew he was in great hands and we are so thankful for them and their friendship.
We got settled into hospital and had some time to just relax and take it all in. We had some friends stop by to visit and pray with us. My parents headed down here as soon as we called them and told them I was having surgery, but since it is a long drive we already knew they would not be here in time for the surgery. Bryan and I were thankful that Josh and Kyle came to sit with Bryan before and during the surgery. Thank you Amy and Andrea for giving up your husband for a night. Thank you Tara for coming by last night, the flowers are beautiful. We seriously have the best friends.
The surgery went good. We had hoped that the doctor could just remove the ectopic and I could keep the tube. Once he was in there he said that it was close to rupturing and had to remove the tube. My doctor gave me the option of coming home last night, but since I didn’t get out of recover until almost midnight and was in a lot of pain it was best to stay overnight. I cannot imagine how I would have been able to come home last night. This morning I started taking pain medicine orally instead of through my iv so I was able to come home about noon.
Today I am sore but on pain medicine that is helping a lot. For the next 6 weeks I am supposed to be resting and recovering.
Unfortunately this also means that I can’t pick up Deacon or drive for at least 7-10 days. Which means I will be relying on Bryan and our family a lot for the next few weeks. Deacon is going to go home with my parents this week. He is kind of a mommy’s boy and I know it will be very difficult to not pick him up if he is here.
We greatly appreciate everyone’s thoughts and prayers during this difficult situation. We know that God is in control of our lives and that he has a great plan for our lives and our family. He has already blessed us more than we ever deserve. We put all of our trust in him alone. We place our lives in his hands and know that no matter what happens he will always hold us tight. God has given us peace and a ton of strength to get through all of this. I won’t say that we have not had rough days, because we have. But once again we are reminded that God is in control and it seems like I have to be reminded of that often. Even when we disagree with and want to take the control from his hands we have to remember that his plan always prevails.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
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